A Heartfelt Apology And Appeal v2 Electric Boogaloo

Hello people of Zecraftldcraft.

I have been awake for over 50 hours but this is honestly a heartfelt appeal so please don't think it's a joke because of the name I put time into this.


ahem.


It has been, 4 months, 19 days, and 11 hours since I was banned.

It was a wild ride from the start.

I know that my actions from my unban-reban time period were bad, and it was my fault. There were specific details and reactions that could've easily been avoided and things like my banning wouldn't have occurred.

For example, I know the players I'm about to tag will probably not be allowed to respond but I felt that in order to actually prove that I was sorry for all the chaos I caused, I felt that I should apologize to those I hurt most.

@ Staff Team As A Whole

I know I was a pain in your side the whole time. It was iffy for me to come back anyways and I had ruined that and lost many of you as friends and I also lost your trust. I'm sorry to all of you. People like Dcaff, Mergu, Marshall, Travis, and Mako and Virg.
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@DCaff95 . Boy oh BOY. I think you were the person I honestly have to apologize the most to. It was very painful to even look back on my protests and such and how much of an idiotic asshole I was to protest and be a dick to you for just doing your job. Honestly I really liked you. I thought you were a neat guy with alot of ideas and I loved to be a part of the build team. You were fun to be around. I pushed you too far and I pushed too many people too far and too hard. Tbh this kinda sounds like a rant but Im really tired and Im really trying to apologize but im sorry if it doesnt come off as that.

@Gamerguy You and i have been through a lot together. You know me and a few other players were involved in certain situations that caused alot of drama to the server and it should've just all ended. This place doesn't need drama. We need bonding and fun. I was really shitty to you originally but I felt like my ban was justified when it came to the right reasons. again im rlly tired but I am sorry for being such a thorn in your side because I feel like you're stuck with me

@TravisTouchdown @Marshall_Lee @virgil @Makoah Honestly you guys are my favorite staff members. sorry to the otherS who read this. But like. I was a complete dick as stated to Dcaff and everyone who wasn't on my side about the whole thing. I didn't look at it from both sides. I didn't understand how much of a horrible person I was being when it came to the choices I made.

herecomesthebitwhereyoudonthavetoreadifyoudontwantto

I'm suffering through PTSD and Schizophrenic Episodes daily. It isnt fun. Sometimes if I'm upset, or angry; the things I say to people seem right and justified to me in my situation. I completely understand being banned or muted when an episode of mine is about to start. But then again, I know what is wrong and what is right when I'm not having an episode. I've been in and out of mental hospitals, and I'm currently in out-patient treatment with meds and doctors. When I was banned I felt like it was the end of the world. I was depressed, I was angry. That's why I protested and continued to try to evade my ban because I felt like this place was the only place that I could really be myself.

And to be honest, This is one of the places I feel safe in. I feel like this community as a whole has and always will be a part of me, And I continue to want to be a part of it.

I'd like another chance at being involved in the place I've called home for so many years.

Thanlks for reading.

love u all- tenshi

 

I didn't realize I spelled stuff wrong so please ignore this reply and the incorrect words im really tired